New Game Face

Mapping out the plan today
Dusting off my walking shoes
Clearing out my calendar
Know there's nothing left to lose

Got a road trip going on
Need some friends to carry on
A place to hang my hat upon
Space inside to imagine on

The mind is really airing out
The mind is open to it all
The heart is healing unabridged
The heart is listening to the call

There's a lot of world to see
So much learning is to be
Spirit's there to carry me
Love surrounds protectively

Walking on the Ether of Dreams

The step, still hesitated
Toe first, dipping down
Finding walking surface through
Faith internal and eternal

Toe first, dipping down
The road ahead is long
But unseen; hidden within questions
Fears dart out, biting ankles

The road ahead is long
These motivations, largely unknown
Spirit there, providing encouragement
Spirit there, providing support

These motivations, largely unknown
Doubting questions rush in daily
Moving forward, the miracle
Seeming mythical right now

Doubting questions rush in daily
As does the urge to go
Unsteadily moving forward
The step, still hesitated

Kaleidoscope

Myriad colors
Amazing world we live in
Every day alive

Silence In The Fog

Naked eye does not discern it
The shift; the directing away
Like a ship gently changing its course
Moving silently in the fog

The shift; the directing away
Instead of staying in port
No longer rejoining the song
Of the sea; no crew to assist

Instead of staying in port
To plan the journey ahead
Rather drifting searching sadly
Fears left open to feed on the dread

To plan the journey ahead
Knowing accomplishments wanted
There is hope for tomorrow
Faith listens and waits for this answer

Knowing accomplishments wanted
Comes from within the mind
Based on honest intentions
Naked eye does not discern it

Wishful Thinking

Wish I could take it back
truth in your mind understood now
truth causing pain and sadness in your eyes
last thing I wanted, sadness in your eyes
wish I could say something to ease the pain

Wish I could take it back, if I could
silly words that changed it all for us
words of truth of love of dreams
the mismatch of the realities we seek
wish I could conjure up some new dreams

Wish I could take it back, but I can't
erase the open door of my heart
fallen for one and another again
both lost to me; but truth left behind
pain of truth that I cannot take back

This is the real deal

It is wrong to continue
wrong, all along wrong
the stressed smiles
dotted with periods of lost abandon
fed nothing for our souls
'cept for false comfort
(others perceive it that way), however
I have been made to face the mirror
it is time to proceed in truth

It feels wrong to continue
Fear and guilt have had their way with me
too many times
I have patched my attitude to cover
the pain; for no good reason
Fear laughs and shows me those
worst case scenarios, the loss of trust
the loss of friends who cannot understand
that I must answer to the truth

Those laughing pictures together
reminders of the good that rains anyway
I wish they represented our souls
rather, are mere ghosts of imperfect intentions
unable to convey the lack
the empty conversations, the lies
the struggle to continue for the sake of others
the maintenance to keep face in the family
who cannot see or expect the truth now

In Gratitude

This is in gratitude
to spirit; who guides me
speaking to me through
voices of songs and essays
through the wind at my ears
and the sand in my toes

How can I even repay these gifts
arriving at this late hour
My heart is stoned; my head exploding
spirit speaks and reminds my fear
that it is time for it to go
That I must move forward bravely

Within this turmoil, I am thankful
for the whispering truth in my soul
for the strength to face the day
for the ability to smile at my demons
to share the gifts given to me
since it was never about me to begin with

It is the path
beckoning me forward
in gratitude
it is the path
calling my name out
so clearly